God very rarely communicates directly with me. It’s happened only once before, on the brink of suicide nearly three years ago to the day. Last week he spoke to me again. On both occasion the message was simple, direct and exactly what was needed.
I will admit right here and right now I’ve struggled with my faith recently. Not in a major way but it’s been hard at times. My recent post about “trench warfare” really summed up how I was feeling at the time.
I hadn’t really been praying as much as I know I should have. I was feeling weak. What I was really missing was that feeling that God was watching out for me. It felt so prominent in the early days. Like I was being really carried and protected by him.
Lately I have felt distinctly alone.
At times that has been really overwhelming.